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O, my love
if you just knew how it burns inside
If you just knew what I am going throu
O what painful feelings I have got to myself

Whenever I feel strong and wanting to leave you behind
You come to me and break the strangth so easy
Whenever I thought I am happy and can go on by my self
you come to me and bring the memorise of you
and making me so weak again

O my Lord
I feel in such pain when he is so cold
I feel dying when he is so far away
I feel breaking when I hear all the bad things about him

O my Lord
end all of this pain
I am begging you
Every secounds became so more painful
I feel in such pain because I feel him with me where ever I was
I am feeling him inside of me
I feel his heart beating in my heart

My Lord
I am so thirsty for seeing him
Thirsty like one in a desert with no water

O my love
if you just knew how many times
I wished I could end this pain
How I wished I could end all of this
in just some secounds

Don't think that I didn't try
but whenever I tried I thought about everyone els
My life is not just for my sake
I have to keep breathing because of others
My mum would surely not have the streangth to take this
I would destroy my own family
I would desroy everyone who loved me once
And then I just regreet that I even thought about ending my life

I have to keep breathing because of others
While I am allready dead
O, you made me teach myself to continue my life with this pain
which is killing me slowly