friendship?
I used to wonder why somone would look at you in the night while you are sleaping, if he is not in love with you?
Why someone would talk to you whole the night
about everything
that he dont want to lose you
that he will tell you everything later, just when the time comes
if it is not more than friendship?
Why someone would hold your hand whole the night
and saying that if we hold our hands like that, strong, so we can win over everything
and never get apart
if he is not in love with you?
Why would he kiss my hand, if we are just friends?
Why would he care about you, if he is not in love?
Why would he tell you
that he is not seing any girls any longer
if it is not more than friendship?
I used to wonder why he did behave in that way?
But it seems that I am too young to know why...
It seems that I am too angelic hearted to know why...
the dream - cave
Tonight I saw a dream
The dream felt so real
...
Enjoyed the beautiful coast
was sitting on the sand while the waves came and soped from my toes till legs
the water was so clear and so soft
My mum and everyone else was sitting a bit far away from me
They was sitting on chairs while speaking about me
They thought I couldnt hear them
But I did
They talket to someone stranger
The stranger talket about me
"she has not long time left to live,
She has a disease ------------------------
the disease have come to high level
We are sorry
The disease is stronger than we can do something about"
I didnt look behind me, didnt look how my lovely mother was look like
I was scared that they would know that I heard
Didnt want anyone would come to me
to feel sorry for me
Because I didnt feel sorry
I stood up and begun to walk beside the water
I felt theirs eyebeam at my neck
It did hurt me alot
not because I understood about my disease
I didnt feel sad about it
It was like I knew
I maybe just felt surprised that I had right
but it hurts because of my mother and my family
I didnt want to hurt them
didnt want that they should feel in pain
because of me
I walket and walket until I was somewhere else
somewhere so far away from my family
I felt so lost
so lonely
Just wanted to be beside someone
Just someone which could hold me in his arms
someone which could understand me without saying a word
someone which gave me the strangth that I needed
I felt a bit calm
after walking alone
like it allways did
I walket until I was near the mountain
which was of stone with wild plant around
It was so beautiful
The waves of the sea was touching so softly at the big and high mountain
like if they were in unfortunite love
The sun was around to go down
I did feel like I am somewhere in magic world
And the most wonderful thing was when I saw the cave
I went inside that big cave which the water went throue
it was just a small way to go in
but the water which went inside wasnt so deep
I could go even in that water
which was so soft and clear like it was in that sea outside
I couldnt blieve what I saw
It felt like I was in a "dream"
The cave was full of sea creatures
It was really beautiful
I havent seen anything like these before
I didnt even knew that there was such sea creatures as much it was
You can even imagine how many colors the sea creatures had
The cave was like it was by cristal
And the light of the sunset
made the whole cave
lighting up on red
It was incredible!
and then slowly slowly I could hear that the phone was ringing
when I wake up I noticet even that I hadnt moved whole night, while I use to move so much
8 hours without moving
njat - ah law ta3rf ( if you knew )
its one of thouse old songs that I love =)
I dont know why I begin to love old songs again,
Toba - abdel halim hafez
This is one of thouse old song that I love.
the notebook
This is "the nootebook", I have seen the movie and read the book by nicholas sparks. This story is a love story, about Noah and Allie who loved each other till the end.
I did love to read the book more than see the movie of it.. Because the book had more emotions, I mean I felt like it was more romantic and more sesual than the movie.
"Do you know what I most remember about the good days?
Falling in love, that's what I remember.
Every time I read to her, it was like I was courting her, because sometimes, just sometimes, she would fall in love with me again, just like she had a long time ago. And that's the most wonderful feeling in the world. How many people are ever gives that chance? To have someone you love fall in love with you over and over."
Noah said (in the book) it after that she died, because of the disease, Alzheimer. The disease of forgetting itself.
"I love you.. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I have ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. And my darling, you will always be mine."
"She was my dream. She made me who I am, and holding her in my arms was more natural to me than my own heartbeat. I think about her all the time. Even now, when I am sitting here I think about her. There could never have been another."
He said it (in the book) to her when she asked him about "his wife", because she didnt remember anything.
The time
The time is seloution for everything
the time will show you and me the truth
