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This is a great story..about a girl who believed in the power she had.. well she believed she could save the future.. after that she met someone who was from the Heavens.. He told her to believe for the sake of saving the world.. because it will be destroyed otherwise.. she was the girl of the destiny..
The world would be destroyed because for long time ago the spirits of the humans build the world above because of their ceruisity and well with the time they became evcil and the world began to destroy each other.. But the young man, named Munto was the king who wanted to save the world he lived in.. though there was evil.. He believed in a better future..

But in at the finally he was gone!! Well I didn't see him.. I really loved him! :'(

"You won't be able to save the future by sacrificing the feelings of others!"
"The spirit is something we can not see.. it has the power of letting things have a form"

If destiny is not for me
And my love is not ment to be
Then why did you let this love on me to see
Now my tears run down like sea

I have been betrayed by fate
How i wish you'll be my soulmate
Torture me until i'll be awake
So this pain would soonly fade

Are you now happy
Seeing my life in mysery
With your love a part of my bitter history
Gradually you are distroying me

Suffering all sleepless night
I just wanna hold you with all my might
On you I can't demand , I don't have rights
Then a snap look at you , found delight

I never stop from crying
Every minute I feel like dying
Release me now from this sighing
I beg don't stop me from loving

I never forget you as i pray
Can you please wipe this tears away
My head on your shoulders i would lay
I love you there's nothing more to say

This may suffocate me from my insecurity
But we can never escape reality
You can't be mine completely
but i will love you eternally

To live and love across the time

This movie is awsome!!
You have to see it!
It's about a man who bought an old desk.. which he found letters inside the secret door..
And he wrote a answer for the letter, while he didn't axpected something..
But strangly the letter came to the person and they began to write to each other, though the lady was dead allready but the letters went through the time.. And so much happenes.. In her life and his.. You have to see to understand..

Oh it so sad! Do you think that the souls are been born over and over again?
They say that there is someone the same as you, exactly you.. somewhere else.. in another demention of time..
I wonder what life I had then..  How my life was like...

I have seen that movie when I was a kid.. maybe thats why I began to love write letters.. to get letters.. Maybe that's why I believed in real and true love and at the wondering souls in demention of time..

somebody is me

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, when you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me



Hero

let me be your hero
Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.

Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.


Taking back my love (ft ciera)

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt?

You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
My love

Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you

You think that you know
(I do)
You've made yourself cold
(Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl

You're out of control
(So what?)
How could you let go?
(Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material?

So all this love I give you, take it away
(Uh, uh huh)
You think material's the reason I came
(Uh, uh huh)

If I had nothing would you want me to stay
(Uh, uh huh)
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
my love

Why, why, why
Oh ooh ohh

There you are, in a darkened room
And you're all alone, looking out the window
Your heart is cold and lost the will to love
Like a broken arrow
Here I stand in the shadows
In the shadows
Come to come, come to me
Can't you see that

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry
My body's longing to hold you
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life (ohh)
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why (why), why don't you let me love you

Why (ooh ohh yeah), why (oh why), why

Ooh ooh, yeah
Can you hear my voice, do you hear my song
It's a seranade, so your heart can find me, ohh
And suddenly you're flying down the stairs
Into my arms, baby, ohh

Before I start going crazy
Going crazy, ohh
Run to me
Run to me
Cause I'm dying...

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry (I don't wanna cry)
My body's longing to hold you (I'm longing to hold you)
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life (ohh)
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why

Why, why don't you let me love you
I wanna feel you need me
Feel you need me
Just like the air you're breathing
Breathing, I need you here in my life

Don't walk away, don't walk away
Don't walk alway, don't walk away
No, no, no, no...

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry...yeah yeah

Nobody wants to be lonely (yeah ohh ooh)
Nobody wants to cry (nobody wants to cry)
My body's longing to hold you (is longing to hold you)
So bad it hurts inside (hurts inside)
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life (ohh)
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why (why), why don't you let me love you
Let me love you...

It's a great movie! I really liked it.. Today on chanel 3 was that movie, which I being charmed by... Well I really like the guy.."Kevin Costner" He is awsome.. His movies are really good..
It's about a guy who lost his wife in an accident.. in Venzuela.
Both are doctors.. and she decided to go with the group to the villiges in Vensuella.. though he was against going while she was pragnant.. But she told him.. that she was needed so she had to go..
Yeah well when she was lost there in the buss accident.. her ghost came to her husband couple of times.. He though he was going to be crazy.. but in the end he found out that she had something to tell him.. Something he had to know..
Well watch it, so you will know what happens.. It's much better to watch it..

"The important thing is to believe"
Well yeah he had to trust in his feelings and believe in things with no "avidence" because then he wouldn't come to know anything.. He had to follow his heart.. and see what there would be..

It's a really good story.. It's more like a detective story..
The Bleed children who been hunted always.. are children who are cursed.. The fate of theirs are death, darkness..
But a single hope has been found and it's the boy, who are the brother of a great detective.. The boy is always thinking that he is so useless, and he can't never be like his great brother.
But the brother, before he disapeared, he said that the only hope the Bleed children had was the younger brother, the boy..
The way he thinks, the way he acts, the faith, the hope.. It's something we must have somethimes to go on.. To be able to continue..

"As long as you don't give up, hope always exists. Fate can defenetly be changed someday..

"If you don't give up, possibilities are endless.
The fortune of believers.. That's what an Iris means in the launguage of flowers."
Iris

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Can't swear, you're the one
Cause you make me insane
Every night, when you talk
I feel I'm drowning inside of your heart

You never said too much
You're turning me over
I see your face, I'm falling and falling
In your embrace
I'm having the time of my life

I wanna give you a world for 2
I'll give all my love to you
Cause you make me feel so good
And all I want to is to dance with you
And stay here forever
World for 2
I'll never take my eyes from you
Cause you make me feel so right
And every night I just want to
Give a world for 2

You can't tear me apart
Even without my heart
Without me getting hurt
That if you leave me, I fall to the ground

I never felt so much
I don't understand it
What's in your touch, I'm falling and falling
In your embrace
I'm having the time of my life

I would give you a world, give you a world for 2

When you went to bed
I was lying there watching fall asleep
I gave you a kiss
And slowly, so slowly you said to me

I want to give you a world for 2
I'll give all my love to you
Cause you make me feel so good
And all I want to is to dance with you
And stay here forever
World for 2
I'll never take my eyes from you
Cause you make me feel so right
And every night I just want to
Give a world for 2

Give a world, give a world for 2

Yeah I love being in the rain, be soaked.. Feel the pure water droping over me.. I love to sing and dance in the rain.. It would even better to kiss someone in the rain :P
But I really hate to be in my room when it rains.. Because I would be so depressed.. To just see the rain, it feels so dark and prisoned.. But to be in the rain, feels so great!

I even used to go out in the rain when I was a kidd. Out to our garden.. and just go round and round in cirkels under the rain.. and laugh untill my mum being angry at me and takes me inside and tell me to change my cloths.. And with my sadness to not being able to continue to dance in the rain, I go and change my clothes, like I have been told to..

The Best Little Girl in the World by Steven Levenkron

"Fat and Skinny had a race
All around the pillow case
Fat fell down and broke her face
Skinny said, ‘Ha-ha, I won the race."

It's about a girl, Francesca Louise Dietrich, a normal teenager who loves ballet and goes for ballet lessons. At the beginning of the story, Francesca has already begun to hate her ‘fat body’, so she began to go down in wights to be in perfect form and be perfect in ballet. Francesca created even a new name for herself: Kessa. In her mind, Kessa is thin and perfect but Francesca is fat and ugly. So that’s how her obsession of becoming thin started.
   After some time, her parents noticed that she wasn't normal, that she didn't eat at all and was going down on weights so abnormal. Finally, Kessa’s pediatrician advised her parents to let Kessa see a psychiatrist. But Kessa’s condition did not improve, as she still won’t eat and finally landed in the hospital, even after the doctors she has meet.

I think this is the first book about anorexia nervosa I read.. It was really good and sad in the same time.. But you have to read the whole, because it won't be good if you read just the thought of her.. It would even be good to see how she tries to be better in the end..
But strangly enough I began to throw up when I eat after reading this book, I wonder if it's causes of this..
I even think thoughts like.. being disgust when I see someone eat infront of me, or to see a fat person.. though i try to not think like that. though I try to eat.. not to much off course but not starving myself either.. But I can't help to be disgust and feel ill sometimes..
So be careful when you read it.. don't read with a passion like you usually do, if you decide to read this book..

Johanna Nilsson
Hon går genom tavlan, ut ur bilden = She goes through the painting, out of the picture
It's about mobbing and exclusion, about growing up and change, about how children can be cruel, about how the poeple don't want to see. It's about how much we dare to grow up.
Hanna who is the head-caracter is just 10 years old when she loses her best friend.. Slowly everyone leave her and she became more lonely each day.. Everyone at school call her SWOT and treat her ugly.. She try to hide and to be in a safe world there everyone would leave her be.. She began to be afraid from people slowly and get away from them, untill people around her leave her alone too, even thous who tried to be her friend. Until the world arount her becomes empty..

At the same time.. we would read about the same girl after some years, in a psyke-hospital.. there she remembers her grandpa, who died.. she tries to paint and let the soul be free.. She wants to go out and see the world, even if she is afraid from this world.. She is still young and want to feel some vicinity of skin.. She wants to open the window, to let the fresh air in. It's hard to breath here, the soul is getting astma, and the folly grows..

It's really a sad story.. Well I think everyone feels that way too sometimes..
so lonely and scared, so empty and lost.. so confused and gone..
But we don't lose the rope of hope though, because we are much older that that poor girl.. Just 10 years old, and everything just began to be that bad.. No one would get out of this.. But though everyone has their weakness, and their strength.. Everyone would maybe behave differently in that sitiuation.. But just if she let some people come closer to her.. just if the people around could care about her more.. Where were her parents? Her sister and brother? Where did they go? Why noone could possibly see what was going on with her? She was their child though! It's not only her fault, the most who are blamed is the parents.. Why do they make children who they can't handle and take care of.. Poor girl!
I am so sad.. because it happens in the real life too, and the book is even about a real story..There's so many children around who just want some love.. Just want someone around, someone who cares about them.. Just give them some attention..
I was really lucky to have so many around me when I was kidd. Even if they are now spilit now everwher. But I kknow that they just wellcome me whenever I want to se them.. I had their love all these years, their attention.. Even since I was the youngest of all my sisters and brothers.. Even since I was had no father.. I been given more attention and love then anyone.. Everything I wanted they would give me.. Though I was never a kidd who just want that and this.. I Thought always that I had everything I wanted.. And it was really true, even now..
But though everyone around me and all this love I have been given.. I sometimes feel alone in this world.. Well I recognize that is just the feeling when someone becomes teenager.. When everything seems to change, when you change completly.. When you don't even know yourself anymore.. That's even a hard time.. But I had evryone around me then and now too.. So I will never really lose..
I wish everyone knew that everyone around, really cares about them, even if they don't show it..

In balcony I was sitting
watching the sky above
Watching the stars which were lighting the dakness above
Suddenly some lights were lighting strongly, by the motorcycles which were going in circles
Controlling by some guys, which were sitting on and making noices.
One of these guys came to the balcony of mine and had cherry in his hind
With my surrprise I opened my mouth automaticly and he stopped it
He was a nice guy, with light eyes and blond hair, a good looking young man..
He smiled and jumped back to his motorcycle when my sister came and told him to get away from me
And asked how I could trust in a guy like that, and how I could let him came near..
Well she was angry at me more correctly..
I shaked my shoulder as "who cares" and went inside to my room. Like I always do in the real.. which make them more angry..

Later I was with my friends, walking back from the Library
Suddenly some motorcycles was behind us..
They were shooting some kind golfballs which were explosive
I tried to shoot them away to not destroy the biuldings and hurt anyone
Later when they stopped I went to one of them, the one I knew
And slapped him on the chick

" What spose that mean?"

"We had just some fun"

"Do you call that fun? Please!
Do you know if polise was here, what would happen?!
You are cleaver so don't give them a chance to destroy your dream, your own future!
If you want to have fun, come with me to Stockholm, I will go there about a week. So come with me to marry-go-around!
It will be fun, and much more fun that this which you guys are doing here."

"Ok I will come."

I looked at him, and smiled. He was still a child, I noticed now. I took his hands and walked with him..

(it was abit like that bird in my room)
And then I went to my room after throwing away the trash in the right place. There in my room was an abondoned bird, because it had a long tail. But it was so beautiful, small and.. unic. I wondered how it came in, but I guess it came throw the window...
And then when I came near, it just jumped at my shoulder.
"Oh so unfrighten and amazing bird" I thought
Suddenly I heard something thrue the window.. I looked and saw that it was another, much stranger bird flying behind the window. It was like if the bird wanted to come in, I just opened my window and the bird just flying inside..

I finaly woke up by the knocking door I heard in the dream.. While I thought it was real..

These books are bookseries.. which are really good and exciting. I read it which such intresset that I even can't forget the story, though I read it about 3 years ago..
It's about a girl, Caroline who came to a house there she worked, as cleaning.. Berta who are the head caracter is around the same age as Caroline and they became friends.. Later with the time she knew that Caroline in the real her sister, by her father.
Her father got sick when he was ingaged and in the hospital he met a nice sister who he fall in love with and got a child.. But he didn't know about the child when he left her to marry his fiance.. But grandmother knew, that's how the girl been sent here..
And later Berta and Caroline go to a work another city, together.. And there their jobb is just to be friends with a boy and a girl who had hard time... Because their mother died..
With the time.. they got knew that in the real.. the childrens mother wasn't dead, but she hided.. because she was tired off everything.. And later when the mother came out, because she wanted to save her child.. It came out.. that the mother of children.. are in the real.. Carolins mother too..
Berta fall in love with the boy.. But the boy fall in love with Caroline.. which is in the real his own sister.. But nothing happened before they knew that they were sublings..
Later Carolin wenty somewhere without telling anyone.. She went to teach to be actriss.
The last book, is Carolin who are writing and telling from her sighn.. She even fall in love with someone... who she met once in a cafe, and his name was ADAM..

Well it's really a good story, which you have to think while you read.. You can't take your eyes off! Well you have to read to know how it feels ^^

The Da Vinci code

This story is about the old story for P.S. Well in the book they say that Jesus has a child.. And from that day until now, his generation are been hunted... It's so many stories in one book in the real.. you just have to read it!
The girl, head caracter and Robert who is the real headcaracter is working hard to find what the girl's grandfather wanted to say before he been murded. Robert is a prefessor in symbol.. And there he finds out that the girls grandfather laid symbols to show the way.. to find her grandmother and her own brother..
There is even a movie which is made by it, but it's defenetly not as excitng as the book. And even the movie is boring, just show the investagation, not the real story, because the real story is, that the girl is garnd grand... child for Jesus.. And that's why they wanted to kill her and her brother when they were a child.. and that's why they been apart to let everyone think that they been killed. To protect the grandchildren.

1,1,2,3,5,8,13,21,34,55,89,144,...


Angels and demons

This is a story which is really intresting, about a man who works in the chearch. Well the old kathedral which is in the Rom. And he want to take revange for his father, who are his real father. But he didn't know that, just when he was old.. so he poisoned him and decided to show the poeple that there was a GOD. Well to have a child is forbiddedn for a man who workd in the Kathedral. And he was even Pappa there so that's why he became angry about what he knew.. Since he was teached that everone had to listen to GOD and never do a singel sin, specielly if it was Pappa.
And yeah he does many insane things, as killing and taking up the organization which where thous who was with the knowlege, "the fire, water, earth, air.."
Yeah you have to read it! It's intressting to know about the Rom and history about it..


Dan Brown write so perfectly good and let you go in into another world. You can't even take your eyes from the book you are reading. I remember when I read thous books, I just read the whole day without stopping, just if I wanted to eat or to go to towlet. I even stayed late to read it.. It keeps happening so many things always and even everything is just so exting with knowing so many stories which can be true. The strories are even some history, intressting history. The auther is taking everything in together and make it so perfect.. The movies are not good as the book, absolutly not. The books are so much better and well more exciting.. The story in the book is even not the same as the movie. wel it's the same but not exactly..

This is a story about a girl and a boy who loved each other. But when everything began to be really good between them, the girl had accident, and went in coma around three years. In thous three years he was with her best friend.. And well you have to see so you would know what happens..
I feel sorry for the both girls and the boyfriend...
All four is best friends.. the both girl were in love with the same boy, who was one of the two best friend.
But an advice.. when you see it, you have to not having mascara, because it will be so black under your eyes of tears you would dropp.

Just like the stars twinkling in the night sky...
The melting heart that won't let go...
Even if I let go my hand...
As long as we don't forget...


Like the brithest star in the darkest sky of night
Hearts which truly joined will never fade
Even if these hand will ever pull apart
The conection between us will never be betraied

"som jag vill vara" ( "like I want to be" ) is about a girl who becomes pragnant after that she slept the first time with her boyfriend. And later she decide to keep the child, though both are just 15 years old, and though whole the world is against keeping the child. But she just couldn't kill her own mini child which was ground in her body, stomach. But later everyone becames more understanding when they had no other choice than just accept what she wanted to do.
It's really a good story which show you how to take resposiblity for own act. And even how things can be hard, though we have sometimes to decide hard dececions





"Hur kär får man bli?" ( "How much can one be in love?" ) is about a girl who live with her father, brother and father's girlfriend. The girl meet even a boy who came new to her class, there she falls in love with... Though her best friend likes him. And that's why they get apart, but then became friends again. You would read how she would go throw her bestfriend's relationship and her love. Even how she have it home.. with father's girlfiend, which she didn't like, but who turned to be a nice girl..





"Expert på att rodna" ( "An expert in blushing" ) is about a girl who had to move with her mother to a house, her mothers boyfriend's house. She got a new brother (?) which she was intressted in from the beginning. And there you would read how she would live there with the boy she likes and with the new rules in the new home.

I read these three books by Katarina Von Bredow. All these books are about love and about the feelings of "if its the right or wrong to do this and that.." "What is the right thing to do?"
The feelings of love, regreetness, strength, anger, faith etc.
I really loved all these books. When you read it, you feel like you are the head-caractear. You feel like you are in the story. The auther write the books so perfectly, without any "too detalies" style. She write the story, just too perfect to fit in.